JEREMIAD ' THE NAKEDNESS OF 2018 '

2018 is almost done yet not dusted, with its glee and gloom;

2019, my next path is untried and lusterless;

Will take it with the step of pleasure,

for Almighty ALLAH(GOD) is there, and in Him I trust.

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“JANUARY...

I could remember,cross-over night 

was with friends and families praying; 

TRINITY carnival was next till dawn…

The first month on the calendar,

A perfect time to start all over again;

A time most families spend together,

New beginnings, new attitudes.”

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“FEBRUARY,

February they say is the month of love?

I guess that's not applicable to me,

no wonder its the shortest month in the calendar year.

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

"MARCH, APRIL, MAY,

Hmm…… These months were ‘TESTING’,

Struggled with my work, my marriage, myself,etc.

Sad days, yet nothing to do than pray,

innocence lost , joy no where to be found.

Yet I felt I was too good to be suffering this much.

I clinched to Hardwork, it gave me Hope."

“ JUNE,

still in the holy month of Ramadan;

Optimistic my hard-work will pay but

JUNE 10 hit me soo hard; 

I got the knock-out punch

I LOST MY DAD !!!! (a story for another day),

at this point almost everything changed...

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“JULY,

I needed to be the Man of two homes ;

as the only son, my Mum needed me,

my sisters needed their brother,

my kids needed their father,

my wife wanted her Husband.

Ironically, I needed my DAD but alas he’s not coming back,

in the end , my matrimonial ties fell apart.

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“AUGUST,

it is my birth month, sometimes I wonder what the point is;

I thought I had buried the remaining bitterness 

when I buried dad.

My pains only remained a well kept secret;

Yet We (I and Kunle Ayilara) still empowered over fifty youths within Ijegun and its environs…

End of August was terrifying as the debts kept pilling up.

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“SEPTEMBER,

the accrued debts,

the rents to be settled,

the pain of My dads death,

the aftermaths of broken marital vows,

personal and other responsibilities.

Then, I realized I was fighting depression already!!!

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“OCTOBER, NOVEMBER,

many looked up to me,

some even said they wanna be like me;

They never knew how many battles fought to be happy,

only I putting smiles on their faces,

they thought I was happy.

I only wish to be happy!

I only want to be happy!!

They say happiness is free ; 

Yet I find it hard to get,

all I do is smile on the outside and cry on the inside,

I find solace in my two best friends, music and heineiken.

The struggle continues, it's just that I am too stubborn to give up…

After-all I am the true son of my father.

2018 ALMOST BROKE ME !!!!!!!!

“ DECEMBER,

2018 is almost done yet not dusted, 

with its glee and gloom;

2019, my next path is untried and lustreless;

Will take it with the step of pleasure,

For almighty ALLAH(GOD) is there, and in Him I trust.

I wont say I am ready,I will say I will survive;

never anticipated 2018 like this but I survived.

ÈMÍ NÍ DỌ́N BÀBÁ.

The great bard laments over his challenges in 2018. He says life is about surviving and not being comfortable.